Gonna let myself rest well and get myself use to the new environment and new style of my life so that I can continue to share some useful information from me to you with a happy and healthy words and sentences. =p
This year gonna start my blog with some 2018 flashback except my bored bored new year countdown.
Heard that you will feel proud of yourself and satisfied while refresh back what you have did or achieved in the whole year of special you..
It's really can't imagine that I can achieve what I wrote down in my to achieve list in my 2018 small small note book.
I remembered that time I write as much as I can.
To buy this and that
To go here and there
To try everything that I wish to learn.
To bring my love one to go here and there..
When jot down all my wish list I don't think that I can did it but I wish I can.
Like.
I wish to own a car in this year and wish that I can bring my lovely family to eat some good food instead of always hang out with friends to enjoy myself.
It's a big and impossible task for me but one day I didn't have my own transport I still need to trouble anyone or take the public transport. I know I should be like other girls who are same age with me and can drive their transport to here and there in the early age. I should learn to complete things by my own even I scare. I don't want scare to stop me to be an independent person .I should brave, I need to brave, for the future I want to be my family big tree like my father, if can't,at least is an umbrella for them.
So lastly I really did it.I own my little car and it just like a dream when something you always dream turn to reality. lol.
I wish to change my career as a teacher start from the beginning of 2018 but that time I was just doubt to speak it out and sometime and always so soft-hearted to leave the place which I grow so much. From a newbie tuition teacher. From a just purely like to see small kid and do not know how to deal with them. My colleagues teach me, they provide their ideas and experiences. I am a quite cute teacher to them, my colleagues told me.So that children might crawl to my head.
I am a girl who is really x599951465153486465464978979741564654657878646546546748787 don't like to talk with strangers and don't know how to talk with them. They teach me the way to talk, most and least also need to communicate with parents about their children' study condition or improvement. It's a super duper easy task and I am just use to it when it comes to the third year.
I am a self-contemptuous girl as I always mind others person mind with my ugly teeth.
So many things block me while I am on my way to find orthodontics and finally really thanks to a Internet friends who being my sunshine. She encouraged me in her positive personality and tried to share her own orthodontics experiences with me. With her encouragement, I went to find my orthodontics and slowly become confident when communicate to whoever especially to parents..
I am a girl who can't speak English fluently but I learned to talk with children who born in English family. They like to laugh me but they like to correct me also and from that I learned and learned. Definitely is not a zero grammar mistakes English talker but at least I am confident while I used it to talk with students, parents and even can introduce my tuition centre and tuition package alone to customer. It's actually a simple task but I just proud of myself who lastly brave to facing the things that I always think I can't.
From always use the identity of teacher to teach and talk to student, even you talked in a really strict and angry way but none of the students listen and scare you as they don't respect you,I learned blen的into them.
So in my to do list in 2018,
I wrote that I want to be a softer and good teacher. I try to talk with them politely and reservedly like they are my customer but not in a teacher way that like order student to finish and listen to me like past. Not to scold them straight forward in front of other student's present but one to one talk to them.
Slowly and slowly you will found that they will listen to you.
No need always talk to them in an angry way but no one want to hear you.
Children same with adults,
they like people to talk with them in a nice way.
They are same with us, will feel shame and don't know where to hide their face while you scold them in the class, they need face and respect like what we need too.
So you see, ruined of the second paragraph ideas so far already and now I am going to relate it back.xD
I am heavyheart to leave them but I want to try new things in my life too-start my working life in new environment.
Without words and support from someone I think that time I am still considering to stay or leave.
Someone (are) the person(s) that I like and respect so much in my life while I just step to working life. They are really big big nice person always teach me, teach me and teach me..
Thus, I lastly brave to pass the resignation letter and ended up with my 7 months of struggling.
Talk so much the point actually is you will turn whatever you want if your mindset said they want to, persistently.
And and and also, the support and encouragement of your family and friends.
Before moving Johor,
most of the people said that it is 'complicated' and not so friendly state in Malaysia and they are worried about me.
So let's me make conclusion for that.
I live and work in Senai Johor.
I meet Johor friends who's from Muar, Skudai Batu Pahat, Kulai, Gempas, Puchong, Malacca......
They are all unexpectedly nice to talk and surprisingly friendly.
From bf's family, cousins, friends to my colleagues and manager who I newly meet
they are all nice, caring and warm.
I met a weird group of my bf's friends.
I can remembered that day cleary,
start from 12 p.m. afternoon I take bus and reached there around 8 p.m. at night.
Bf bring the exhausted me to have dinner.
And after dinner we went for dessert,
after choosing dessert and feel finally I can relax,I saw some persons who is so familiar(dearest friends of my bf )
They all just look like what you know.
Like a team of detective which flooded with curious about me and you can see them smile ominously before step into the dessert house.
I know them from my bf's handphone photos(haiya instead always use my bf-I call him in my blog as fat boy. XD He won't know,my blog is too long to read XDDD)
I am kinda of people who seldom join / hang out or gathering in such big group and of course unaccustomed to speak in front of them who newly meet.
Unaccustomed in the way they joke and get along with.
I get myself quite long time to adapted myself and integrate into them.
Not saying that they are not good but just myself who always not willing to open mouth to mesh with new people.I don't like other people always ask about my things and I don't really like to share my personal things in front of peoples.The person who knows me will know, I am a weird people like that.(is that weird? I think is normal as rice can produce millions types of people xD)
And because of that,something unhappy happened,
when they are concern and ask something about me,
I feel like do not want to answer and just simply answer then keep my mouth closed and keep on scrolling phone in their gathering and and ended up with gathering dismissed earlier because of the dark face me and this caused me upset and angry about myself.
I know that they will ask,i know that i need to answer them in other way if i really do not want to share my things,i know that play phone while meet up is impolite.
I know.I just can't open my heart and mouth to speak.
I want to stay good connections with them too.
I want to adapted myself in this cute environment as fast as possible too.
But I really need some time,I told my little fat boy.
A 100 % problem girl.
I don't know how to continue my words then but I am now OK to speak with them like the normal me.All of it just need some time.
Sorry for scaring you guys. XD
_a weird experience to refresh in 2018.
I met a good manager who is so understanding.
I met colleagues who are so friendly.
I am blessing. XDDD
I am lucky.
In 2018,
Although didn't make all the to achieve list come true but I learned a lot from it.
I tell myself no matter what happens please just complete what you wish
No matter how other people say or denied you just do it and trust yourself
Never let what you cannot do interfere with what you can
You are not the product of your circumstances but rather the product of your decision
I know there are many unexpected great things are waiting for us,
Garyao together to fight for a better life in future! ❤️
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